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(Drink On Me)

I Know What Love Is...Im In It. [19 Oct 2004|12:02pm]
[ mood | AHHH!!! IM IN LOVE! ]

I asked god for a flower

He gave me a bouquet


I asked god for a tree


He gave me a foreset


I asked god for an river


He gave me an ocean


I asked god for an angel


He gave me you! =)

Cristina I LoVe You With All That I HaVe To OfFer!! You Make Me What I Am!!! Let Alone The Happiest Person Alive!!! Thank You


(Drink On Me)

[18 Oct 2004|10:27pm]
[ mood | FUCK!!! ]

is life worth it?
i wonder that, last week had to be the greatest week of my life
monday: unearth concert
wednesday: atreyu/used concert
saturday: homecoming
all week: no work!!! (includes: obligations)
but now this. the following monday a week from unearth...its raining and overcast out side, i talked with my good friend barrona, together, we look at life as if its nothing, do we care? not aobut a single damn thing...i want two things out of life
- Cristina
- Baronna w/His Lady Friend
together i know we can be happy. because when i look at it, getting my license cost me my life, it costs me money to which i now dont have, and it cost me my life, an obligation to get a job to pay for fuckin insurance, gas and any maintinence to the damn thing...i want nothing out of life, my girlfriend is what keeps me sane...and i thank (someone up there) everyday for her...but now that im back to reality, work;school;rop(after school program) i want nothing anymore...im out of money, im just fed up with life...the one thing i wanna do is sit around and be with the ones i love, cristina, barrona, you make my life what it is...and not shit, its the bullshit in between haning out with you 2 that make my life not worth it...barrona you understand me to the maxx and i love you with a passion, cristina, wihtout you in my life, thers nothing left, the moment you stepped into it, i havent dropped my smile...you litterally are everything to me, and i love you with everything that i have to offer...
Sincerely
SD...

[20 Aug 2004|11:38am]
[ mood | Crying... ]


My Play List...


- Enya - May It Be

- John Williams - Across The Stars

- John Williams - Departing Couruscant

God These Songs Are Just True Masterpeices...Call Me What You Will, But These Songs Will Bring The Emotions Right Through Your Eyes...They Are Just That Good...

And For Thoes Not Knowing Who 'John Williams' Is...He Did The Score For Star Wars And The Indiana Jones Score...Phenominal Job He Did To...

(Drink On Me)

[19 Aug 2004|11:45am]
[ mood | Woa... ]


Nothing was supposed to hurt like this. missing you was always one more kiss.
now there's nothing that i can do. one more nail in the coffin, and it's all
for you. always were and always were a simple love story. you were everything
i ever hoped and dreamed. drown me in a pool of my blood. it's getting harder
just to breathe. i'll suffocate you faster just so you can't see, so you can't
see me sleep. it's getting harder just to say the right things. i've seen the
angel's face, and i've heard her sing to me. from my reflection on this razor
blade, i've heard ten thousand dying screams, and they're calling me. the day
will break on this saddest day, so don't let me wake. i've heard this all
before, and i've seen this over and over again. don't let me wake. drown me in a
pool of my blood. it's getting harder just to breathe. i'll suffocate you
faster just so you can't see, so you can't see me sleep. so you can't see me
sleep. the day will break on this saddest day, so don't let me wake. i've heard
this all before, and i've seen this over and over again. don't let me wake.
nothing was supposed to hurt like this. and missing you, was always one more kiss.
and now there's nothing that i can do. there's just one more nail in the
coffin. there's just one more nail, and it's all for you. i've seen the angel's
face, and i've heard her sing to me. from my reflection on this razor blade, i've
heard ten thousand dying screams, and they're calling me. the day will break
on this saddest day, so don't let me wake. i've heard this all before, and
i've seen this over and over again. don't let me wake.

(1 40oz of Freedom |Drink On Me)

[14 Aug 2004|01:07am]
[ mood | Em0... ]

Man, Its So Awkward, Im Being So Emo Right Now...But Dont Get Me Wrong, Im HxC to The MaXX with BaRRoNA ^_- but man...so many mixed emotions goin through my head, none real easily explainable...it sux mad...but like all i keep listening to is

From Autumn To Ashes:

- ShORt StOrIEs With TraGIc EndINgS

- AuTUmN'S MoNoLoGuE (/tear)

- ThE FIcTIoN We LIvE

And LIke, It Just Gets Me Thinking...FATA Is So Good Btw...Freakin - A...Autumn's or that GIrls Voice...damn...LoVE It...

(Drink On Me)

[13 Aug 2004|02:04am]
[ mood | PuMPeD!!! ]

Oh Fuck...Just Got Home From Seeing 'NODES OF RANVIER' god damn it was a hell of a show. Missed The First Band But Then...

- SynGaIa

- New Nothing

- REFLUX!!! (Holy Fuck Was That The Shit!!!)

- NoDes Of RaNVIeR (Dissapointed )

ScARs Of ToMoRRoW

- CaLIBaN

- Of AShEs
Reflux Was The Hit of the Night, They Came Out Of No Where And Tore Shit Up!!! Oh Man, Black Guitarist...OWNS EVERYONE!!! Sweeps; Solos; Grinding Riffs; Breakdownsl; Fuck You Name It...They Gots A Cd Comin Out, Fuck, Then They Used Sound Clips From 'Chappelle Show' like, "Who Said White People Cant Dance" 'Right Into a B-DOWN oh FUUUUUCK!!! aight yea that was my night in HOLLYWOOD!!!
For NoDeS Dissapointing Me It Was Because They Only Played One Song Off The Album I Knew, I Mean They Still Kicked Ass I JUST WANTED TO SING!!!

(Drink On Me)

[11 Aug 2004|11:57pm]
[ mood | w0rd ]



Might need to provide this number at the gate
Steady pilot because I'm half afraid
I can't believe youd ask me that
Of Course I dont believe in fate
Would you be depressed?
If I attend that wedding, but only as a guest
Such an unfaithful bride draped in dress
Spun with threads of my regret
Sing it loud to drown out the feeling
When you're feeling much more odd (even)
And half as true as dishonored seamen
We'll breathe Pacific and fight our demons
Would you be depressed?
If I attend that wedding, but only as a guest
Such an unfaithful bride draped in dress
Spun with threads of my regret
So arch your back
And flip your hair
Make eye contact so you know I care
You know I care
But only as a guest
Such an unfaithful bride draped in dress
Spun with threads of my regret

(Drink On Me)

[02 Aug 2004|10:41am]
[ mood | HaHaH!!! ]


AHH MY EYEBROW IS PEIRCED AHHH!!!!

Thats excitement not pain...I LOVE IT!!! thats all for now...Quick and To The Point of the Highlight of My Day/Vacation!

Sorry its not much of an entry but yea , its all i really pretty much have to say!!

LATERS!!!!

(1 40oz of Freedom |Drink On Me)

[30 Jul 2004|10:59pm]
[ mood | Oi... ]

Yea So Whats Up All!!!...I dont know what to write in this thing today...but its ok. Things are going ok, im coming home soon! argh, cant wait. Im getting my eyebrow periced before i come home!!! i just dyed my hair...i like it! im rambling in this thing cuz if there were actually somthing interesting to write about me i would write it but its just not comin to me, so i think ill paste this into my LiveJournal and ill be done with it. LATERS!!!

(Drink On Me)

[28 Jul 2004|10:52pm]
[ mood | To The MaXX!!! ]

cfystmwte: did u ever look did u ever see that one person
cfystmwte: u need to finish the rest of the line
UxNEARTxH: and the subtle way they do these things and it hurts SOO MUCH
cfystmwte: so much  like choking down the embers of a great blaze
UxNEARTxH: It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
UxNEARTxH: =)
cfystmwte: and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds
cfystmwte: im happy i got u into them
cfystmwte: haha
UxNEARTxH: =)
cfystmwte: we dominate!
UxNEARTxH: You let this one person come down on the most perfect moment
cfystmwte: and it breaks my heart to kno the only reason u are here now is a reminder of what ill never have
UxNEARTxH: ill never...Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in..
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
cfystmwte: but this table for one has become bearable
UxNEARTxH: I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
cfystmwte: did u ever look, did u ever see that one person and the subtle way they do tehse things and it hurts so mush
UxNEARTxH: So much it's like choking down the embers of a great place.
cfystmwte: its that momeny when your eyes seem to spread aspersions and to scream comfessions at the insipid sky parting clouds
UxNEARTxH: And you let this one person come down.. come down. I cherish you.. I cherish you.
cfystmwte: just say u woudl do the same for me, just say you would do the same for me
UxNEARTxH: Just Say You Would Do The Same...
cfystmwte: for as much as i love autumn
UxNEARTxH: Im Giving Myself To...Ashes...
UxNEARTxH: =)
UxNEARTxH: *Claps*
cfystmwte: haha
UxNEARTxH: we rule
cfystmwte: haha
cfystmwte: that we do
cfystmwte: especially when u come home...
cfystmwte: haha
cfystmwte: are we still goignt o chilla t christinas house the whole time?
UxNEARTxH: haha
UxNEARTxH: =)
UxNEARTxH: you konw it
UxNEARTxH: but this time we can sing
UxNEARTxH: !
cfystmwte: aweosme
cfystmwte: i am down
cfystmwte: haha
cfystmwte: exactly
cfystmwte: not just me and her, now the three of us can
cfystmwte: haha
cfystmwte: its always better wiht more people
UxNEARTxH: =)
UxNEARTxH: fureal!

(Drink On Me)

[28 Jul 2004|12:42am]
[ mood | FuCK!!! ]



Never give in
Just let the fucking bastards do themselves in
You fucking bastards
Im gonna stand my ground
You fucking bastards
Time to stand your ground
The time is now
Dont be another victim
Take back whats fucking yours
Stay true to your convictions

(Drink On Me)

[27 Jul 2004|09:33am]
[ mood | EmO... ]


Just Walk Away...

(Drink On Me)

[26 Jul 2004|01:33am]
[ mood | rawr* ]


Crystal clear I see the rose is frail.
The thorns hide easily in its beauty.
As I go to grasp it in my hand,
my heart is torn beating from my chest.
Let me be captivated by your beauty,
then let me fall from your grace unto my broken knees.
Close my eyes so tightly: the tears are welling up.
You aren't worth the waste of the salt or the water.

Watching the sun play in your hair
and I couldn't really care,
care any less about you.
Watching the sun play in your hair
I couldn't really care,
care any less about you.

Fuck all your false beauty.
It was transparent just like your smile. (LIAR)
Your thorns caress my flesh:
crimson drops on a snowy field. (LIAR)
I have seen you retrogress.
I have watched what you've become. (LIAR)
Take your eyes off of me.
It's funny how fast blue eyes fade gray. (LIAR)

Let me be captivated by your beauty,
then let me fall from your grace unto my broken knees.
Close my eyes so tightly: the tears are welling up.
You aren't worth the waste of the salt or the fucking water.

You are deceit.

Just wither away real beauty is forever in you

(Drink On Me)

[25 Jul 2004|11:57pm]
[ mood | oi... ]


Oh Man! Goin to see

Nodes of Fuckin RANVIER when i get home!!!

Oh yea...I COME HOME NEXT WEEK SHEEIT! nuttin left to say just so damn excited. Doesnt mean I didnt have a good time up here...I just miss people...*EMO*

sorry...lil to emo...forgive me.

Unearth is the SHIT!!!

(Drink On Me)

[25 Jul 2004|02:38am]
[ mood | sad ]


/tear...

(2 40oz of Freedom |Drink On Me)

[24 Jul 2004|09:27pm]
[ mood | nerdy - Poison The Well =) ]


Im still up here in seattle, and for another week or so...*sigh* but yea, Ive been having an ok time, i went to a wedding today, I dressed somewhat
formal but still, kinda the way i dress everyday, but yea thats was fun...Ive gotten so many CD's this past week, here ill list em for funn...


  • Unearth - Oncoming Storm
  • Unearth - Endless
  • Nodes of Ranvier - Nodes of Ranvier
  • ThrowDown - Haymaker (Holy Shit is it good)
  • Bleeding Through - This Love, This is Murderous
  • Atreyu - Fractures In The Facade Of Your Porcelain Beauty
  • From Autumn To Ashes - The Fiction we Live
  • Scars of Tomorrow - Rope Tied to the Trigger
  • Eighteen Visions - Obsession (Was Dissapointed...)
  • Funeral For A Friend - Cassually Dressed and Deep Conversation
  • Relaps Records Compilation - Contaminated
  • Trustkill Records Compilation - Blood, Sweat, and 10 Years
    and...*sigh*

  • Story of the Year - Page Avenue (But Its Not Bad)


    yea, ive done a LOT of shopping, its fun, ive been working with my mom, Hallmark...heh...anyway im done with this Post, till next time...

    Hey...This Isnt Where I Parked My Car...?
  • (Drink On Me)

    [23 Jul 2004|04:01pm]
    [ mood | sleepy (been gettin no sleep...) ]


    Internal war.
    Killing our own.
    Burn the ones that have sinned against.
    Claim their lives in your death romance.
    Arm the young with your hunting toys.
    By your own actions you are all to blame.
    Power in the wrong hands our scaffold is destroyed.
    Children killing children because our government has ignored.
    I sling my arrow to shatter your walls.
    No more creating victims from ignorance.
    Left to second both sides.
    Each one cries and lies.
    No more war.
    You've killed again.
    My life for what.
    Bound hands.
    Yes you've all killed again.
    Stand by as dying children wait for life.
    The line has been crossed again.
    How long will it take.
    The line has been crossed again.
    How long will it take to protect life.

    (Drink On Me)

    [22 Jul 2004|06:23pm]
    [ mood | blank ]

    Wud Up



    do you's
    1. do you think im smart?
    2. do you think im cute?
    3. do you want to kiss me?
    4. do you want to cuddle with me?
    5. do you want to hook up with me?


    are we's
    1. are we aquintences?
    2. are we friends?
    3. are we hook ups?
    4. are we in a relationship?
    5. are we gonna have kids?

    am i's
    1. am i smart?
    2. am i cute?
    3. am i funny?
    4. am i cool?
    5. am i the most brilliant person ever?

    would you's
    1. would you hang out with me?
    2. would you date me?
    3. would you be my hook up?
    4. would you be my girlfriend/boyfriend?
    5. would you have sex with me?

    have you ever?
    1. have you ever thought about me?
    2. have you ever thought there might be an "us"?
    3. have you ever thought about hookin up with me?
    4. have you ever found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
    5. have you ever wished i were there?

    are you's
    1. are you done with this survey?
    2. are you happy you know me?
    3. are you mad at me?
    4. are you thinkin bout me?
    5. are you going to repost this so that i will return the favor?

    ~  xVoLCoM x StONeRx

    (3 40oz of Freedom |Drink On Me)

    [21 Jul 2004|12:36am]
    [ mood | stressed ]

    'Distance Makes The Heart Grow Fonder'

    Nodes Of Ranvier: Beauty With No Words

    Step into the snow.
    Seeking Your starry eyes.
    Glisten white with purity (blind me.)
    Shine brightly.
    Blinding beauty with no words (a painting of my senses.)
    Show me something so beautiful, but reveal it to my soul alone.
    Lost senses, more innocence.
    (Take everything Father, but leave me with more.)




    Somehow Im Just Not Feeling That...

    (Drink On Me)

    [20 Jul 2004|01:21am]
    [ mood | depressed ]

    Drama...

    Emotions are Killing the Fuck outta me



    Just Walk Away...

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